Or well okay my church of origin was a bit eccentric even by Pentacostal Charismatic standards, but that's the well from which our communes etc sprung, and churches like Valley Haven (and house churches!) were where my family landed when we started to join mainstream society in my late teens.
So, I suspect we share a lot of those same feelings about tongues and healing and prophecy. It's so hard to explain to anyone who never had that as their default-normal. It doesn't always feel weird while it's happening, and the human responses to things are all still there. It's just...it's a whole-ass Experience, isn't it, living that way and then slowly finding your perspective changing.
And yes, to the experience of other Christians reacting as if you/your church are some kind of batshit crazy weirdos. 💔
I tried to speak in tongues too. It never felt like something I wasn't making up. Same with a lot of the rest of it. I've said to Mucca that it felt like living in a world where everyone insists that magic is real, but you can't see or feel or work it yourself. You quickly gain the impression that you're defective. Some people go on to decide that everyone must have been faking it. I'm still not sure--I've talked to people who sincerely did seem to have real stuff happening. But for me... 🤷🏽♀️🤷🏼♀️🤷🏻♀️
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Or well okay my church of origin was a bit eccentric even by Pentacostal Charismatic standards, but that's the well from which our communes etc sprung, and churches like Valley Haven (and house churches!) were where my family landed when we started to join mainstream society in my late teens.
So, I suspect we share a lot of those same feelings about tongues and healing and prophecy. It's so hard to explain to anyone who never had that as their default-normal. It doesn't always feel weird while it's happening, and the human responses to things are all still there. It's just...it's a whole-ass Experience, isn't it, living that way and then slowly finding your perspective changing.
And yes, to the experience of other Christians reacting as if you/your church are some kind of batshit crazy weirdos. 💔
I tried to speak in tongues too. It never felt like something I wasn't making up. Same with a lot of the rest of it. I've said to Mucca that it felt like living in a world where everyone insists that magic is real, but you can't see or feel or work it yourself. You quickly gain the impression that you're defective. Some people go on to decide that everyone must have been faking it. I'm still not sure--I've talked to people who sincerely did seem to have real stuff happening. But for me... 🤷🏽♀️🤷🏼♀️🤷🏻♀️
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